i'm no good at this

it feels like there have been so many things that have been keeping me busy
but when i go back to think of what has happened over the past few weeks, it doesn't seem like nearly enough to explain my absence

so it goes

i started this blog as a way to meet 'fiends' before the 'gathering of the gods' weekend for halloween
and yet i have still failed to post pictures of that weekend

let's see what i can come up with

i dressed a little out of my comfort zone, because hey. why not.

i was by myself.
no one really knew me.
end result:
penguins and a bit of colour








proof i really went:

because i wanted to post more pictures
but with this load time
it's really not happening






maybe if i got off my bum and figured out how to edit my photos on my computer
that might help
as they are huge initially
some day, sure, i'll get to that

for now i'll just get lazy and not post nearly as many pictures as i had intended



as for other things that have taken up my time
there's been random magic the gathering with coworkers
thanksgiving, of course
my cousin is my doppleganger
i know this, and then i forget, and then i get reminded each holiday.
but it's a good kind of reminder


there's been the fiasco of dealing with a relationship, or what is [or isn't] left of it
it's complicated
it's confusing
but i think the worst is over

i'm single again.
the timing isn't the greatest, as for some reason december has never left me with pleasant thoughts when alone
i am sure there is a reason for it, and i am sure if i took a few moments to think about it i would figure it out
but i need my moments for other sorts of thinking, so i will leave it as is for now
i deal with them, and i get thru is
and then february comes and valentine's day gets here and then i get all giddy again
[ironic, isn't it?]
and when i have the funds, anyone whose address i have gets a valentine and candy
and when i'm poor, anyone who i come in contact with in person that week gets a valentine and candy

annnnnd then
drum roll....
my car decided to investigate the back end of a pickup
just in time for christmas.
not quite the present i wanted to be able to give to myself
but hey. could've been worse, so i am most certainly not complaining.
well i am a little. but i'm grateful nonetheless.
ahh well.

and with that i will advise you of what happens when you ask your older brother for a panda.
you get a panda:

to anyone who finds any of this remotely entertaining:
i love you

h'okay, so. here's the earth.. just chillin'...

so.
i kinda dropped off the face of.. the internet... hypothetically.
fancy phones make it impossible to truly get away from the internet
not that i was really trying
it's more so my lack of effort to access a computer
and do internetty things such that require more than a phone to accomplish
i.e. blogging

i have yet to post a single thing about the House on the Rock, Gathering of the Gods weekend.
i will.
i promise.
i just. i need the energy to properly describe something so vastly amazing...
it just requires a little more sleep, or possibly caffeine - neither which i have enough of at the moment
and also for me to finally pay attention to how this danged macbook works and resize photos so as not to take up 5 screens worth just for one image
that might also be blamed on my lack of reading the manual for my camera
either way, the result is the same
point being, to give credit to the glorious weekend that was HotR, i need to be at my best
and right now... i am on the verge of sinking into my bed...

so other, less important things.
i finally replaced my copy of Bulfinch's Mythology [The Complete Texts]
not that any of you knew it was missing.
i erroneously loaned it out to a not so trustworthy coworker. wah.
but. excitement.
arrived just in time, too, because i just finished Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss
WHICH
dear couple i sat next to, the first night at HotR
THANK YOU for recommending this book to me. i am HOOKED.
i can't wait for the next one.

other things i am in the process of replacing?
my macbook battery.
probably the BIGGEST cause of my not doing computery type things
is because if i unplug my macbook it dies completely and loses everything
which, although a magnetic power cord is a great idea, it is also HORRID
as it easily bumps and jiggles and causes macbooks with dead batteries to lose everything currently going on.

with that i think i shall bring my rambling to an end.
and quite possibly snuggle up to a pillow, and a penguin, and an electric blanket

OH. one more thing.
i gave my dad, and my mom's "little sister" [from big brother, sister] both books for All Hallow's Read.
success!



[also, for anyone who isn't sure what my title is about, go here. if you don't laugh at least once, we are probably horribly incompatible.]

well. there's that.

there was a time, i used to blog.
i was twelve? perhaps.
then i didn't blog. then i did again.
late teens, early twenties?
then i didn't again.
and now here i am.
i don't feel witty or interesting enough to be blog worthy.
but i miss it. i miss the feeling of the days where you make a post, and it feels AMAZING.
and. well. if you don't blog at all, those days are numbered at ZERO.
so. they may be few and far between. but at least they will be.
hopefully i amuse at least one person in the process.


this was brought about by a series of both unfortunate [and slightly miserable] and heart-warming events.
i'm not sure i do [or will ever] feel up to the full story.
but.
if nothing else. i am here because i am excited for the upcoming weekend.
the Gathering of the Gods weekend at House on the Rock.
i have been looking forward to this since the first notice went out.
and plans almost went awry. but. with a little push from a very... motivational... person, i am going to make it work.
and i am going to have fun.
and i am going to make friends.
because i can.


so. there's that!