Dear February, I Love You.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY LIFE BUT I AM EXCITED.

There are so many confusing things happening.
I think they are all good.

But right now, I know this:

I am going to visit Christine today, a friend who I haven't seen in AT LEAST 5 years.
Probably longer, but shh.
A cute boy has decided to tag along.

(I am very much okay with this.)

And we are going to see Jenny Owen Youngs.
We will probably be disapproved by Delilah the bunny.
And there might be some Firefly action.

Then.
Tomorrow.
I get to dress up. Like really, truly, dress up.
To go bowling.

I love the concept of dressing up. But I always feel awkward.
Because I am not a dressy uppy type of person.
So to dress up, for awkward reasons, well... I'm right at home, then.
And I get to be with some pretty splendid company, too.

This whole weekend is a win.
And this whole week has been a win.
Actually. This entire month started off pretty full of win.
Dear everyone: THANK YOU.


P.S. For the next... nineteen days, I am officially up to date on my monthly mixes.
I'll just leave these right here...

knowing, without knowing. from meganagitor on 8tracks.

two cups discord, one teaspoon holidays, and a pinch of cheer. blend well. from meganagitor on 8tracks.

Strength in numbers. from meganagitor on 8tracks.

Revival and Renewal

The key here, is to be terse.
Unfortunately, a quality that I am highly lacking.

This blog has been abandoned for almost seven months.
Hmm, no.
Not truly abandoned, and definitely not forgotten....
Neglected, more like.

I'm here to remedy that, once again. Hopefully.

Little by little.

Part of me wants to summarize the past seven months, and part of me wants to start with the past seven days.
But right now, neither of that will happen.

At the moment I have two... nay, three goals.

One- Reviving this blog. Slowly, but surely.
Two- Renewing my interest in documenting my dreams. Now in Delicious Blog Form!

And Three- I've more than a few monthly mixes I've left by the wayside.

So here's a few:


June:

all the movements and the moments in the music... from meganagitor on 8tracks.

July:

distance aside, it remains the same from meganagitor on 8tracks.

August:

growing up was never my forte from meganagitor on 8tracks.

I think that's a good start.

oh lordie.

i've all but given up on this site, it seems.
but.
i mean.
social life? or blog?
until i learn to manage the two together, i'm sorry but social life will win.
cause i have been meeting SO MANY amazing folks.
and i wouldn't trade it for the world.
i can't even describe how wonderful of a feeling it is.

hmm what else...
so much has happened i don't even know what to say.
i feel like i need a theme song comparable to that of big bang theory

uhh.

i am still working on california.
it has been a roller coaster
kinda going, maybe not, set a date, oh wait not yet, maybe going, and right now no fucking clue.
ha. maybe it'll change within the week.
i just hope that if i figure out i'm going, i figure it out more than a week before.
and as much as i want this to happen
i can't think about it
because i start to stress at all the people i have to say goodbye to
okay. end of that or i'm gonna do it again.

also.
car wreck, totaled.
still suck at bass.
mirrormask tattoo delayed by car wreck, but it'll happen by the end of july.
new car found, 2 months later.

and let's see. looks like i missed posting about 3 monthly mixes.


march:




april:



may:



have fun with that?

if memory serves me... wait what? i like pudding?

who am i kidding!
but it's okay
i was going to wing it, anyway.

i know this gets old
but i am unbelievably happy with my life right now
and
well looks can deceive.
especially if i'm at work.
at work, true, i go thru the motions
but that's because i know better waits for me elsewhere
in many places
and many forms

i have a bass to come home to!
[and a cat. and family. of course.]
i have great friends!
[old and new]

just a reminder, in case you forgot

which! i've finally named him!
caspian. [or cass for short.]
any day that i don't play him,
i feel sacrilegious...
i'm in love.


so i've been attempting to multitask
on a few different [minute] projects
and
one. well. two of which are presents.
i think it's safe to post the one that's finished.
as i'm pretty sure the person it's for doesn't even know this blog exists.
but even so, it'll be delivered tomorrow...
i suppose a disclaimer wouldn't hurt though
IF YOU SEE THIS BEFORE TOMORROW IT'S YOUR FAULT SO YOU BETTER ACT SURPRISED
<3
okay i think i covered my bases

so yeah. i drew that.
with a pencil.
the full size scan looks a lot better than on here
and the original obviously looks a lot better than both
but yeah.
i don't really draw very often.
i have to be looking at whatever it is i'm drawing.
and i have to have a lot of time and patience.
so.
i'm kind of proud of this.
i know it's not great
but given how little experience i have in drawing
to me at least, it's great
and, hopefully
the recipient likes it as well...

other than that
i know i save some things from the last blog
to talk about this time
and. memory failed.
the only thing i can remember.
is i got the new bayside album, 'killing time'
and i've been making myself hoarse singing along to it

and, it's only appropriate that i included one of the songs from it
on my monthly mix
that's right.
the monthly mix.
and only a day late.
or technically. 2 hours late.
yay!

so.
enjoy?



also, that's not johnny cash on there
those are my buddies!
pretty good, no??

my cat eats hearts. or loses them.

either way, that's not good.
this:

is what i bought.
and proceeded to display on my window.


this:

gives you an idea of what's left.
not much.
the big'n's are just all cat hair'd up and lying on the ledge.
BUT.
the itty bitty hearts? GONE.
COMPLETELY GONE.
i don't know what's worse.
the idea that they are somewhere throughout the house.
or the idea that she ate them.

sigh.

other than my cat's shenannigans
i'm happy.
a lot.
i've lost [a significant amount of] weight.
not 4872937592 lbs, mind you.
but enough for me to feel like i am going the right direction.
exercise, healthy eating, will power FTW!

and then there are other things
that involve happiness.
but the way i tell stories?
that would be a long story.
and to be honest, not all of the story is mine to tell.
so instead.
i will sit here.
and smirk.
and be happy.
and be alive.
ALIVE.

a feeling i hadn't realized i was missing
until i got it back
and you know what?
i don't ever want to lost that feeling again.
and i ESPECIALLY
do not want to lose it without realizing it.


to top it off
i vaguely recall
making a semi-resolution about monthly mixes.
well.
it's a week late.
but.
here's one for january?