just like a kitten.

so much.
there is so much.

i initially figured that since i've procrastinated enough already
i'd just wait til my end of month mix was due
before i did another post
since it's already been so long
but there's just so much.

i'm probably going to become redundant in saying this
but i'm okay with it
ALIVE
i still am
and i still feel it
and it's great

despite the complications
i am unspeakably happy
with the people that are in my life right now
some have been for quite some time
others, are new arrivals
and i welcome them with open arms

if i actually believed in regret
i may or may not have regrets later on
but
since i don't
i think it'll all work out
one way or another


on a side note
holy postage batman!
i completed my massive valentine's day event
sent out well over 50 valentines to those willing to divulge their addresses
and good gracious
if i didn't break 100 in costs
i sure came close
postage alone was over 80
so
as enjoyable as the task was
it will NOT be a reoccuring event
not like that

i also went out with a friend
the night of
i based my outfit around my socks

there was thai food, followed by drinks at the bier stube
go figure it was a monday night
and do you know what monday nights are at the bier stube?
karaoke nights
somehow
i was tricked into singing
but you know what?
i did it!
and, i didn't even pee my pants!
granted, i wasn't wearing pants....
i don't see it happening again in the near future
but maybe the later future
as i did survive
and it was maybe a smidgen of fun


and finally
[at least for this post]
meet my new baby!!!

he [i'm about 82% sure he's a he] doesn't have a name yet
but you can't force things like these

i went to music-go-round
with every intention of LOOKING at a bass or two
but no intention of BUYING one
not yet, at least
but then
they put him in my hands

and.
well.
it was love.
like when i got my kitty.
once i picked her up
i couldn't put her back down
not until i knew she was mine


so yes
i'm giddy in all sorts of ways
people
musics
BASS
musical people
love
it's amazing

the unspeakable. or i just forgot...

so. i guess i sort of had two unspoken resolutions.
one i'm doing well on so far
the other not so much.
i need to take more photos with my digital camera, rather than my phone camera, this year...

especially since my digital camera, while still very minimal, has way more nifty little options than my phone
and also, i want to blog more.

ha.

guess which one i'm doing better on?

yeah. not so much the blogging. YET.

other than that, i HAVE been making progress.
i started [minimally] putting together valentines.
let's just say it's a good thing i have a month still...
i've worked on a few of the mixes i've been meaning to..
i started zumba last week [every thursday!]
i try and "run" [aka elliptical] every day other than zumba..
but so far every day means last wednesday, and then yesterday and the day before.
but i'm getting there. and i plan on keeping it up.
i have a gym pass damnit!

i've been told, that the date to keep in mind is valentine's day.
who knew?!? ;)
but if you can keep your resolutions going that long, you've got a good chance of keeping it up
kinda like saying when you go vegetarian, that if you can make it the first week, you can make it forever. [so far, that is true!]

speaking of valentines... if there is anyone reading this
[who isn't already on facebook, etc...]
and likes valentines day
or candy
or glitter
or snail mail
[really, you HAVE to like at least one of these, if you're a real person]
 okay. so i admit. i just recently was reminded [upon cleaning my closet], i apparently had a year where i hated valentines day.






















but that doesn't mean you shouldn't still give me your address!
i will send you some love!
[i can easily direct you to fb or my email address for less stalkerish happenings]


i can't help but be excited.
this is my favourite holiday...
but boy do i have my work cut out for me...

good thing i have support!

or maybe not...

chimney smoke billowing, snowflakes on my lashes...

so, this christmas is coming along quite nicely i think

well, i mean...
okay i gotta rant for a smidge...
stress happens, to everyone, all the time
so, to all you angry people out there:
          get over yourselves.
yes, the few days before christmas can get rough.
but in NO way should you let the stress effect you so much that you take it out on everyone around you.
traffic is worse, shops are more crowded, but you know what?
i manage!
i still let cars in the line in an alternating fashion, i slow down for pedestrians, i make sure intersections aren't blocked for those who need thru...
but MOST IMPORTANTLY, i still know how to SMILE.

see?!?

christmas spirit FTW!

you can't really tell, but there are christmas lights on the garage, and they are on.
coming soon: penguin totem pole.
[you'll know what i mean when you see it]

so it's been hectic.
for example my 13 hr shift yesterday ran closer to 15, cutting my sleep down to 4 hrs before having to get blood drawn and go back to work this morning
BUT
then my sister and her family came over
i only really see them once a year
her kids are growing soooooooooo much.
the oldest is only a year away from driving. A YEAR.
i feel old
but it was nice.
AND AND AND
tell me this isn't the coolest start-of-christmas present ever?

that's right. you can't, because it is!
[ha. made you think!]


PLUS.
my car is fixed.
this is THE shiniest i have EVER seen it.
i swear.
annnnnnnd!
it smells prettier too!

apparently i can fall asleep while attempting to blog
i no longer have any idea where i was going after the car bits
as it is still early and snowy
plus this whole GOING TO work at 8am rather than COMING FROM work at 8am is playing badminton with my head
oooh, a birdie!
ha.

so i shall leave you with this:

MROW.

i think i've got the right idea...

i just need the right motivation?

blog more often, but shorter amounts?
could this possibly be the proper equation?

i could say 'we shall see..' but that is assuming i will have the right motivation
so, really, in all honesty what i really should say is 'we shall see, if we shall see...'
or something.
drat.
i think i hurt my brain a little bit.

anyways, smooshedy car:

from the front it looks like it's missing its front tooth :-/
supposedly it'll done on wednesday?
possibly another 'we shall see' moment...
at least i get updates!

one of many reasons why i should not be a parent:

[i partake in torture methods.]
although, i DID debate getting my own set of antlers in order to match?
[as if that's any nicer to her, haha]


lately i have been mildly, and i do mean MILDLY, trying to contact matthew gray gubler.
via twitter.
yes, i have a mild [okay more than mild] crush on him.
i admit this.
but it is possible to to have hope without expectation
and that is exactly what this is
i would hope that one day i might win!
to get a reply.. so to say...
or even [gasp] a whole conversation
but i don't expect to
he's got such a charming [online] personality that i'm sure he's bogged down will millions of fangirls [and boys?] blowing up his twitter, email and whatever else may exist as means of pestering him
i'm not special, i'm just a "normal" girl.
lady? ha. no we'll stick with girl.
[normal is debatable - as if normal truly exists.. but that's for another day. or never.]
anyways, point is, i'm realistic.

for those of you who don't know who i'm talking about

i'll give you something to reference

although i'm not sure which picture is my favourite...

<-- this.  OR  this. -->

 


anyway, i digress
the whole point of bringing this up
was that i've noticed
i tend to find.. solace? comfort?
in things that are more tangible in theory, than reality...
things that are near impossible to obtain...
and i'm not sure what to make of that...

[so much for more often and SHORTER. ha.]